Ball and Chain

Guess it's one of those days
Where it's hard to keep the madness off my mind
Working to be happy
But I feel like it's just a waste of time
Can't kick this ball and chain
It makes me bring my pain wherever I go
I just wanna find my way home

And if the old me saw the new me
He'd be like oh shit, how'd you do this
How'd you do this
Got through all that bullshit
Went through it, went through it

Feels like I'm headed towards my own destruction
But I'm just like fuck it
Pain is better than nothing
Feels like I'm headed towards my own destruction
But I'm just like fuck it
Pain is better than nothing

Used to love the way she made me feel
'Til I find out that it wasn't real
Bet she thought I'd never heal
But she the reason imma get a deal

Used to love the way you made me feel
'Til I found out that it wasn't real
Bet you thought that I would never heal
But you're the reason imma get a deal

Guess it's one of those days
Where it's hard to keep the madness off my mind
Working to be happy
But I feel like it's just a waste of time
Can't kick this ball and chain
It makes me bring my pain wherever I go
I just wanna find my way home

If the old me saw the new me
He'd be like oh shit, how'd you do this
How'd you do this
Got through all that bullshit
Went through it, went through it