Not a star

I was walking in the cold,
I had nothing but my own luck
I couldn't even think straight
My mind had been foggy those days

I could get back to my bed
I could also be brave
So much to think about
So much I can taste it

What I've decided brought me here
Where am I supposedly at?
(So) many were around me
I can't recall their names now

I could sob another year
I could also think straight
Some emotions have their names
Some of them just faces

Oh I spoke so loud again
Oh my God, I'm still not a star
I hope I get to be one
They don't seem that sad

Just hear this melody,
Would you guess I'm suffering?
On this time of the year
I always feel so incomplete

I would be lying
If I said it felt alright
How you pretended
You did care about my eyes

Tear after tear,
And year after year
I feel like I grow a bit
Yet I feel so unneeded

Oh, I spoke my mind again
Oh my God, I'm still not a star
I hope I get to be one
They don't seem that sad

Just hear this melody,
Would you guess I'm suffering?
On this time of the year
I always feel so incomplete

Oh my God, I'm still not a star
I remember that time
(when) I wrote a card to be one
But I will not complain,
It's just what I would expect
Pardon my tone its just
I'm not as cheery as this song