well known

I don't wanna be well known
Just wanna be known well
I'd rather be lonely than be by myself
Don't wanna go home
Or put my pride on the shelf
Cause I don't need help from anyone else
And I've been feeling so low
Help me back into character, I was
"Reckless kid, born and raised in America"
Now I'm a lost cause and truth be told
I lie too much, my bad
Trust me I'm working on it
I thought I'd die young
Likes didn't do shit
I know well being well known's useless
I'll go to hell too eager to care
I'm on a screen island where no one stares
I wanna find whats inside me
Feel every fiber
Done sucking up cause I'm no longer a liar
Don't know how to be myself sometimes
But whenever I need your help
I always tell you now
I know now, it was all costumes
Funny dances to play my mind
Now I need to believe it
And I won't hold onto something familiar
We were kept back from the
People we really were it's a start
I just hope I acknowledge the
Gifts from the past when we run out of time
I just wanna be known well not well known
I'd rather be lonely than be alone
I'd rather sleep in a hotel
Than sleep in my home
But I've been pulling my
Weight in my thoughts no matter where I go
I've been feeling so low
Help me back into character, I was
"Reckless kid, born and raised in America"
Now I'm a lost cause and truth be told
I lie too much, my bad
I've got a star studded cast of friends
That never answer the phone no
Matter when I call
Gotta stop trying so hard to try so hard
Otherwise I'll have nobody at all
I'm still learning to be direct
Cause for years I've been a mess
In '18 I changed address
Not the right one, but the best
Cause my parents are my success
I still need to earn their respect
I'm just trying to figure it out
There's probably a lot that
I should've done differently
And I, oh I went to hear it out
But I was never listening
I knew that it's not alright
Just trying to find the light
Summon another spark
Or maybe it's gone and died
I try to stay out of sight
I gotta leave by the night
I can't seem to clear my mind
But I know now, that it was all
A bad dream, crash scene playing in my mind
And I shouldn't believe it, so I
Can't hold onto something familiar
When I've lost sight of the people
We really were at the start
And I've started to see it, ‘cause
I don't wanna be well known
I don't wanna be well known
I don't wanna be well known
Just wanna be known well
I'd rather be lonely than be by myself
Don't wanna go home or
Put my pride on the shelf
Cause I don't need help from anyone else