Reckoning

Still again
My thoughts return to wandering.
Fields of grass
Soften savage muttering.
Backyard dreams
Of meadows find me promising
Lushness that I sold her
Studded, stumped and bouldered
Still the swaying, idle playing
Summer scenes are beckoning.

Calm again
Ghosts and angers flickering.
Laps and leaves
Cast shadows on the glimmering.
Checkerboards
Twist and buckle, shuddering.
Flattened gaping grins
Stitched together hymns
Bring dismissals, sighs, denials
At last a reckoning.