Request Denied

I know I lied in my songs at least twice
when I cried that We Are Not Gonna Die
And let's face it, there's no haven
The sirens leave us to drown
I poured my heart out but I guess nothing's changing
And I can't help but feel like I can't run away
I wrote a thousand songs about depression but I'm still depressed
Sang a hundred lines about progression but I'm still a mess
I hoped I'd die at least a couple of times
Request denied, guess I'm not gonna die
And let's face it, there is no heaven
Disappointing but at least I learned my lesson
I poured my heart out but I guess nothing's changing
And I can't help but feel like I can't run away
I wrote a thousand songs about depression but I'm still depressed
Sang a hundred lines about progression but I'm still a mess
But I’m still a mess
And for a million years I let it disappear
A hundred days have gone by without me moving on
I tried to deny it
And I tried so hard to define it
but I learned that i cannot hide it
so I will stop to blame it on me
Fuck it
I poured my heart out but I guess nothing's changing
And I can't help but feel like I can't run away
I wrote a thousand songs about depression but I'm still depressed
Sang a hundred lines about progression but I'm still a mess
but I'm still a mess