Monsters Inside

I've blindly followed
I've made some real mistakes
I've lost and I have cheated
Leading too many hearts to break

It's past the past-time
And I'm not running from memories
'Cuz I'm trying to be better than the prick you knew from the suburbs
Not passive or patient
I'm trying and failing
And still not prevailing and clinically struggling

Is it good fortune that affords us the distraction?
Which allows us to continue down the path that we otherwise would not approve of
Blinders on our consciousness
We can't play the victim

It's past the past-time
And I'm not running from memories
'Cuz I'm trying to be better than the prick you knew from the suburbs
Not passive or patient
I'm trying and failing
And still not prevailing and clinically struggling

We've lost our masks now, it's all for the show
And we burn bright in the shadow by the fire's amber glow
We're monsters on the inside and the villagers all know
No amount of makeup can cover what we've sewn

Was it even worth it?
I promise not to tell