Happy When I Die [Explicit]

Why do I keep running
From the person I'm becoming
I spent all my money
But I'll be happy when I die
It's game over
10 am and I'm not sober
Trying to keep my composure
So I could be happy when I die

I'm trying to make me a mil'
But shit I can't pay my bills
Cause I be craving them pills
They say I'm crazy as hell
I need a place I can chill
Stay away in the hills
I'll catch a case if you will
Cause I ain't taking no ill
Make sure your seatbelts are fastened
I ain't the cat you imagine
'Cause I'm sociopathic and a little old fashioned
Like a young Charles Manson
And a recent Ted Danson
Try to cause a distraction
Charlie wait what happened?
So what had happened was
I never really gave a fuck
Plus I was dangerous
When buzzed off a case of bud
And money I don't make enough
Won't hesitate to take your drugs
The real you just fake as fuck
Before I die I'll take the dub

Why do I keep running
From the person I'm becoming
I spent all my money
But I'll be happy when I die
It's game over
10 am and I'm not sober
Trying to keep my composure
So I could be happy when I die

Down the 101 with no one inside my ride
Wasting away
Lost my baby
And don't know why
But I've been faded like all my life
Sometimes I question if the pain is ever worth my high
I talk to god but he ain't ever answer
I really wish I had a reason to ask for some peace back
'Cause in my life I don't relax
A heart attack
I feel my love is starting to relapse

Why do I keep running
From the person I'm becoming
I spent all my money
But I'll be happy when I die
It's game over
10 am and I'm not sober
Trying to keep my composure
So I could be happy when I die
But I'll be happy when I die