the first snow of the year

the first snow of the year

doing all the things
i used to do with
people.
cold showers.
daytime television.
taking time release
morphine in bed.
i can’t remember
who i was on the
phone with

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i saw my friends at a party
i should go out now
i saw my friends at a show
i should go out now
i wish i could sing i wish i could write
i wish i could stay up all night
like i did when i was on speed like i did when i was sixteen
but I'm not gonna write a song about you
i'm not gonna write a song about you

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(shooting dope)