I Wanna Get Better

Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room
Calling my name and I follow just to find you
Trace the faith to a broken down television
And I put on the weather
'Cause I trained myself to give up on the past, yeah
Froze in time between hearses and caskets
Lost control when I panicked at the acid test
I wanna get better
While my friends were getting high
And chasing girls down parkway lines
I was losing my mind 'cause the love, love, love, love
Love that I gave, wasted on a nice face
In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet
Counting seconds through the night and got carried away
So I am standing on the overpass screaming at myself
Hey, I wanna get better
Didn't know I was lonely until I saw your face
But I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
Didn't know I was broken until I wanted to change
But I wanna get better, better, better, better
I want-
To my room where there's girls on the ceiling
Cut out the pictures and I chase that feeling
Of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was
Now I'm a stranger
And I'll miss the days of a life still permanent
And mourn the years before I got carried away
That's why I'm standing by the interstate screaming at the cars
Hey, I wanna get better
I didn't know I was lonely until I saw your face
But I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken until i wanted to change
But I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
'Cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi
Yeah, I'm screaming out my bedroom window
Like, even if it's gonna kill me
Hey, I woke up this morning early before my family
From this dream where she was trying to show me
How a life can move from the darkness
She says to get better
So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet
And crash my car 'cause I wanna get carried away
That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself
Hey, I wanna get better
Didn't know I was lonely until I saw your face
But I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken until I wanted to change
But I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better