Nightmare

I'm too emotional, I have to let you go
I haven't cleaned my room since last time you came home
And every day that passes by makes it so much harder to enjoy my life
Though it's part of growing older
I'm sleeping with the lights off
It's better if I'm blind so I can get you off my mind 'cause

Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes, I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare

I'm too impulsive, I didn't mean to call again
I wasn't thinking straight last night at 3 AM
I been having trouble tryna fall asleep
Melatonin by my side, but my will is weak
Keeping notions that I'm fine so I don't need
Medicated remedies, fuck benzodiazepines

Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes, I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare

Why do I try, I don't know why, I wanna fall in love
I wanna die every time I see you walking up
Forget all the fights, remember the nights we had, it's not enough
I wanna lie, pretend I'm alright but

Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes, I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes, I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night, I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare