hindsight makes this one funny

I finally did it without crying 20 minutes ago
It was nice but not like I remember
From when my body was so distant
Belonged to me like an instrument
Not something that I was but what I play
And I used to think that drinking made people so interesting
Something to talk about to widen their peers' eyes
Cuz everyone loves a good shitfaced story
But you've gotta stop when they wouldn't be shocked if you died
We're reading Macbeth in English
I shouldn't say the name but fuck those theater freaks
And it took my breath
When Lady Macbeth said she wanted to be unsexed
I said so loud that everyone laughed
She's just like me
Yesterday I went to work in my pajamas
No one even slightly tried to mention it
Made me wonder why instead of my own comfort
I always try to be so goddamn stylish
I live my life like it's a movie someone's watching
And I always loved that until recently
Until I realized I'm a birthday clown who cant even juggle
And I'm the only one watching the movie
I'm the only one watching the movie
I'm the only on watching the movie
I'm the only one watching the movie