What Am I Doing

I'm trying as hard as I can to remember
What turned this fire colder than December
But you don't even care
So why am I even here?
If you don't even care
Then why am I even here?
I can't remember when's the last time I smiled
I tell you what, it's been a while
But you don't even care
So why am I even here?
I think my hot mess just turned into a cold war
And neither of us want this anymore
'Cause we don't even care
Then what are we doing here?
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
What are we doing?
How did we do it?
I thought I made you feel amazing
What am I doing?
When did I lose it?
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
What are we doing?
How did we do it?
I thought I made you feel amazing
What am I doing?
When did I lose it?
I think I got caught up, it's just an illusion
I paid someone to solve my confusions
If you don't really care, what am I doing here?
Remember when we said we'd stay forever?
But now I see you next to never
And if you don't want me here
Then why should I care?
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
What are we doing?
How do we do it?
I thought I made you feel amazing
What am I doing?
When did I lose it?
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
What are we doing?
How do we do it?
I thought I made you feel amazing
What am I doing?
When did I lose it?
I think I got caught up, it's just an illusion
I paid someone to solve my confusions
If you don't really care, then what am I doing here?
Remember when we said we'd stay forever?
But now I see you next to never
And if you don't want me here
Then why should I care?
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy