Solipsism

Half asleep you check to see if I'm alive.
Why would you come over just to start a fight?
I'm the type who loves to be alone.
All you want's affection, yea, and all I want's to go.
Euphoria. I try to keep the upper hand and you're far along.
It's not hard to keep the upper hand when you say I still.
Love you when I choose.
Knowing when to lose and let go?
Euphoria.
Patience is a virtue and I'm falling short.
Every time we disagree I'm out the door.
You should not empower me.
I feed off the pain.
Tantrum tactic obstacles
Keeps us both engaged all the same.
Euphoria. I try to keep the upper hand and you're far along.
It's not hard to keep the upper hand when you say I still.
Love you when I choose.
Knowing when to lose and let go?
Euphoria.
I need to sculpt the way you feel
To keep the spark alive and well cause
I might never be the one who sees the everlasting.
I might never give the time it takes for our finessing.