Don't Remember Me For This (Alternate Version)

Here I wait for things I can't control
And I fall down the hole
Nauseous, will I sleep?

I'd hate to see you see yourself come on
Hate to see you see yourself come on
Standing here I'm in first place
And I wanted this in the worst way
Heard you call, waited here so long

Why does it always go this way?
Why does this never work my way?

In my dreams, still thinking
Suffering, misery
Faced down, laid down
All my mind can do

I'd hate to see you see yourself come on
Hate to see you see yourself come on
Your eyes and smile on that first
And I wanted this in the worst way
Did you know?
Would you care at all?

Why does it always go this way?
Why does this never work my way?

I'd hate to see you see yourself come on
Hate to see you see yourself come on
Your mind was mine from that first day
Still wanting this in the worst way
Could you call?
Are you there at all?

Why does it always go this way?
Why does this never work my way?