Thoughts of a Survivor

There was nothing psychotic about it
All his actions were conscious and controlled
I walked down the street
My eyes crossed yours
I felt a fright along my spine
And if I hadn't looked at you in that moment...
If we take the fear away
There's no reason to be afraid anymore
Everything happened very quickly
With extreme violence
You caught me then took away
Then nothing. The abyss.
If we take the fear away
There's no reason to be afraid anymore
I woke up because I was cold
I was immersed in a bathtub of ice water
In the end, I remember thinking
"I'm worth something"
If I hadn't almost died because of him
I would never have understood
That there is nothing to fear
Except fear itself
We are mortal creatures
With impulses and consciousness
We are both strong and weak
Angelic and demonic
Both with a fresh hand
To calm a feverish forehead
And the raging hand
Around the throat
Who gives both life and death
"You have to get through this
You must survive
I've decided. I can do it.
No matter how hard life throws me
I can handle it...
I can handle it..."