Deck You (In The Schnozz)

I find myself falling away
From everything and everyone I love around me
I think it's time to contemplate
Take a minute, think of all I've lost along the way
You all say that you'll never leave
So sick of hearing that, there's no way I could believe
You or anyone who says they're sticking around
By the time I turn my head back, you're out of town

And it's always a pain
When it ruptures in my brain
And sends me insane
Everytime I put my trust in someone
They rip out part of my soul
I just keep getting let down
It's the same old

I feel like I've been cursed and plagued
For every bad thing that's finally coming my way
So I'll hide myself up in the clouds
Good luck to anyone who wants to try and reach me now
I'm so afraid of it
Feeling anything
I am so out of use
Stay home as a recluse

Will it ever change?
Stuck in circles on repeat
It's so fucking lame
So sick of loving all these people who'll
Eventually leave me on my own
I just keep getting let down
It's the same old

It'll stay the same
What a fool, to think it could be any other way
This is my life now, I'll get used to it
Lose a friend here n there, I will take no hit
Or Lose the 'love of my life' again
And I'll tell you 'she ain't shit'
Well that's a fucking lie
Cos clearly, I'm not over any of it