Nowhere left to go

I can't outrun my mind
It follows me like smoke
Every thought a poison
Every breath, a joke
Tried to scream in silence
But the silence never breaks
And the mirror shows a stranger
That I can't even fake
I'm tired of pretending
Like I'm not falling apart
Like I'm not drowning nightly
With a needle through my heart
It's not one big disaster
It's a thousand little cuts
And no one sees the bleeding
Cause I keep my mouth shut
I'm stuck inside a storm
With nowhere left to go
The light I used to follow
Burned out long ago
My head is loud and heavy
But the world moves slow
And I'm tired of the noise
And this permanent low
I overthink each word I say
Then hate myself for speaking
Replay every second
While my sanity is leaking
I sit in crowded rooms
And still feel like I'm gone
I'm surrounded but forgotten
A ghost that carries on
They say it gets better
But I've waited long enough
What if this is all there is?
Just surviving, calling bluff
I'm stuck inside a storm
With no map, no line
Every "I'm fine" is a lie
I've rehearsed a thousand times
And if no one ever noticed
Would it even show?
Cause I'm fading into nothing
And there's nowhere left to go
I don't want a savior
I just want it to stop
This noise, this ache, this loop
That always drags me to the drop
Don't tell me I'll be okay
Just let me be undone
I'm not asking for tomorrow
I'm just trying not to run
I'm stuck inside a storm
And the rain won't let me be
I've screamed into the dark
But it never answered me
So if I disappear
Know it wasn't just for show
I was tired, I was hollow
And had nowhere left to go