Guilty Pleasures

I'm going numb
A frozen stone
I fantasize, what if I were gone?
I spent so many days alone
I feel at peace when I'm on my own
We all make mistakes sometimes but
I'm beating on myself cus I made it twice
Could've even been three time but you
didn't even care to apologize
I was fallen on my knees
Your mom could even hear me begging baby, please
Maybe I'm just fine like this
Used to the pain, it became my bliss
I'm going numb
A frozen stone
I fantasize, what if I were gone?
I spent so many days alone
I feel at peace when I'm on my own