Dead

I can barely even trust you yeah you know
But how the fuck am I supposed to be okay after this
Hit me up and then you ghost
cnd I'm alone
cnd I'm alone
I've been going on my rides again
I don't even know if I can trust my friends
Count my days but they always end
I could count life but that shit depends
Shut the fuck up get out my head
Pushing you away ain't my intent
But swear to god
It's like you want me dead
I've been feeling shit that I ain't felt in a long time
Distrust digging like a knife
Injustice on my mind
'Cause this shit don't feel right
I was up all last night
Texting you like we might
Hoping that you'd reply
I guess that's a lie
When I learned you're sucking my blood
I broke from my cuffs
I got up and I run
cnd stop for no one
I say that I'm fine
That's a lie
Put the past behind me
Think I'm better off
When nobody like me
I don't want you to see
What you mean to me
'Cause then I'll feel stupid
You won't feel the same
Who the fuck is this cupid
He never did nothing
But fuck this shit up
Tryna get to my bucks
But this shit fucked me up
Why you stressing me out
When I'm down on my luck
Why you gotta act like you love me
Then you turn around and you snub me
clways acting cold like my money
clways acting like you above me
clways dismissive and turn it around
Then you paint me the bad guy I look like a clown
'Cause I'm not doing nothing I won't live this down
But I'm sick of this shit so I'm standing my ground
I've been going on my rides again
I don't even know if I can trust my friends
Count my days but they always end
I could count life but that shit depends
Shut the fuck up get out my head
Pushing you away ain't my intent
But swear to god
It's like you want me dead