Dead to Me

I saw you as perfect while i was breaking
Held on so tight, even while shaking
Was i in love… or just afraid to be alone?
'Cause you were never mine — just a shadow i owned
They said i lost it — but i was never sane
Was it love… or something that fed on my sanity?
You're dead to me!!! — don't pretend to care!
I ripped you out like you were never there!
I don't miss you, i miss who i used to be!
Before you made a ghost of all i was.
You're dead to me — you are gone for good
Like a scream i buried deep inside
I still see you standing in the mirror
But your eyes were filled with fear
Did i lose you… or create you to feel loved?
Was it love, or something i bent through?
You left a scar i can't erase...
So i set fire to your fucking face!
Was any of it real?
Did you ever care?
Why did i bleed
Just to feel you there?
Did i break you — or did you break me?!
Why did you fucking choose to leave?!
Was it a lie? was it a sin?
Did i let the monster in?
If you're still breathing, i can't tell —
'Cause i left your ghost in a padded cell!
You're dead to me — no light, no scream!
You faded out like a dying dream!
I used to pray…for your return —
Now i light the match… and watch you burn!
You're dead to me — no more control!
I dug your grave inside my soul!
I forget what's fantasy…
and what's a crime!