Recurring Nightmare #105

Rethorical questions beneath the smiles
Sighs of relief masking inward cries
So many consequences to save myself
So many answers is this worth the time
One of thousands fingers crossed
One of thousands numbers lost
Why am I alive
Why didn't i die
Who did I destroy
White gowns cover scars
Who decides revenge
What did I deserve
Fake smiles cover pain
Unsatisfied with answers
Why am I alive
Skeptical of my powers
Why didn't I die
Why am I alive
Why didn't I die