Homesick

The ones you left behind
Man I'd like the same old records
The ones you left behind
Yo
Keep your family close
Got some things on my chest
Stuff to say
Hear me out man
We don't care about those
Coz you deserve more than a verse
The strongest woman that I've ever known to walk on this earth
Born with a curse, I'll be playing back these memories I stored in reverse
Counting pennies that you clawed from your purse
Coz we had next to no money still you always found a way
Kept some clothes up on my back, put some food up on my plate
And I know that you conceived me in your later years
The universe has got a plan and that's the way that nature steers
And even as I write these words your face appears
I place it with my fears, the case is weird, I'm tryna save the tears
Nothing like a mother's love for her son
Looking back at certain moments and it's got me feeling dumb
Like when I lied and stole that money for some Yu-Gi-Oh cards
I was a lost boy, like I'm one of Rufio's dargs
I nurse the wounds and picked the truth from those scars an count the days I miss you
I blame myself, you couldn't handle my behaviour issues
Keep your family close, keep your family close
All your sisters and brothers
Keep your family close, keep your family close
All your kids and your mothers
We don't care about those, we don't care about those
Cos we ain't needing no others
Keep your family close
My brother's keeper, never took the time to say I love you bro
And if you never passed I wouldn't say it, I'd just spud you though
Your younger brother, soon to be older than you
You showed me guidance on this path that I've been known to pursue
Coz I remember when I said some racist shit like it was cool
You quickly slapped me on my head and said I'm acting a fool
You gave me gems that I could stack and had my back like a jewel
That's why I've never been to jail an never clapped off a tool
Still can't believe you took your life it's such a tragedy
We love you nonetheless but all you've left behind was agony
Mixed emotions, mixing up prescription drugs and alcohol
And they might numb the pain but they can strip your love and drown your soul
And ever since you left it's never been the same
But it comforts me to know that one day we'll meet again
I got some memories of you that outweigh the ones I'm left with
So I've been trying to see it from a different perspective
Keep your family close, keep your family close
All your sisters and brothers
Keep your family close, keep your family close
All your kids and your mothers
We don't care about those, we don't care about those
Cos we ain't needing no others
Keep your family close
To my skin and blister, to my sister from a different mister
I ain't been about you know that I'm a drifter
Never settle down, but you know I love you like a second mum
Struggling to find the words I'm feeling like I'm deaf and dumb
And I know that we ain't spoke in a while
But life can get on top and now we both got a child
I still can't believe our kids were born a couple days apart
But that was God's work for certain, I can feel it in my heart
You showed me the world, all the holidays and trips
Always had the latest football kit and latest pair of kicks
Now mum and bro are both looking down and feeling proud
And they're hear in spirit whether they're alive or in the ground
And mum's kicking back, sipping on a Guinness
Letting out this pain and tryna to leave my mind replenished
And all these thoughts that I hold in my clutch
Feel like we've fallen out of touch and we don't talk much
But mum wouldn't want that
Keep your family close, keep your family close
All your sisters and brothers
Keep your family close, keep your family close
All your kids and your mothers
We don't care about those, we don't care about those
Cos we ain't needing no others
Keep your family clos
Keep em close
Sisters, brothers, mothers, cousins