i wish, Pt. 2
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A lot of my issues, um, they do stem from my childhood
I think it was just the environment I was in
The constant pressure of everything
And I don't mean pressure in like a needing to do way
As a kid you don't need to do anything, you know
But in like just the fighting
It was constant, it never stopped
I don't know
If they'll be together by tomorrow night
I don't know
If I'll have somethin to drown out the fight
But they love me right?
But they love me right?
I don't wanna go home
Cause I need to be alone right now
I don't wanna go home
I'm gonna die if I return to that house
But they love me right?
I wish I had died that night
And when it did stop, it was
The silence was outshined by the fear of it happening again
And it just, it sucked
That's all I remember really
I have like vivid memories of like
Going to bed when I was like 7 years old
I don't know
If they'll be together by tomorrow night (And I just hear them fighting through the wall for hours)
I don't know (And I remember sitting there at that age)
If I'll have to sleep through another fight (And I remember being told as a kid like when you pray
You know, prayers can make things happen)
But they love me right? (And every-night when I heard them fighting I prayed that both of them would die)
But they love me right? (I prayed that every-night)
I don't wanna go home (I prayed that God would kill both my parents just to get it to stop)
Cause I need to be alone right now (I don't think I ever told them that before)
I don't wanna go home
I'm gonna die if I return to that house (Cause when I was little I used to pray every-night, I would pray, I would go over every family member that I had,)
But they love me right? (Cause I thought If I skipped one something bad would happen, so I would go over ever family member, every cousin, every grand-parent that I could name. So that they could be healthy and have a great next day)
I wish I had died that night
But when my parents would fight
I would just repeat over and over again until I fell asleep
I prayed that both of them would drop dead
I wish I had died (God, God please make them die please)
God, please make them drop dead
God, please kill them
I wish I had died
Like its, its just so funny that my brain reverted to that It just, its all it could do
Cause if I go out there I'm just gonna get yelled at, you know what I mean?
I can't get them to stop, you know what I mean?
That was my last resort
Was just, just a prayer
I think it was just the environment I was in
The constant pressure of everything
And I don't mean pressure in like a needing to do way
As a kid you don't need to do anything, you know
But in like just the fighting
It was constant, it never stopped
I don't know
If they'll be together by tomorrow night
I don't know
If I'll have somethin to drown out the fight
But they love me right?
But they love me right?
I don't wanna go home
Cause I need to be alone right now
I don't wanna go home
I'm gonna die if I return to that house
But they love me right?
I wish I had died that night
And when it did stop, it was
The silence was outshined by the fear of it happening again
And it just, it sucked
That's all I remember really
I have like vivid memories of like
Going to bed when I was like 7 years old
I don't know
If they'll be together by tomorrow night (And I just hear them fighting through the wall for hours)
I don't know (And I remember sitting there at that age)
If I'll have to sleep through another fight (And I remember being told as a kid like when you pray
You know, prayers can make things happen)
But they love me right? (And every-night when I heard them fighting I prayed that both of them would die)
But they love me right? (I prayed that every-night)
I don't wanna go home (I prayed that God would kill both my parents just to get it to stop)
Cause I need to be alone right now (I don't think I ever told them that before)
I don't wanna go home
I'm gonna die if I return to that house (Cause when I was little I used to pray every-night, I would pray, I would go over every family member that I had,)
But they love me right? (Cause I thought If I skipped one something bad would happen, so I would go over ever family member, every cousin, every grand-parent that I could name. So that they could be healthy and have a great next day)
I wish I had died that night
But when my parents would fight
I would just repeat over and over again until I fell asleep
I prayed that both of them would drop dead
I wish I had died (God, God please make them die please)
God, please make them drop dead
God, please kill them
I wish I had died
Like its, its just so funny that my brain reverted to that It just, its all it could do
Cause if I go out there I'm just gonna get yelled at, you know what I mean?
I can't get them to stop, you know what I mean?
That was my last resort
Was just, just a prayer