Suicide

I, I witnessed my end
I watched god crawl from deep within
The savior said I would break
And succumb to my own fate

In sin I washed myself with the blood and the pain down inside
Held the power of death in my hand and let it fester my soul
God won't save this world
I did this to myself

Looking into the unknown and stabbing at the heart and soul
I brought myself this far and this deep into hell
In a blink my existence was erased
With no hope that help will come from elsewhere
I feel death calling out to me from the ground underneath

As I sat by and watch this unfold
I began to lose my self control
Hopeless and stunned by feeling
I gave into the delusion of existing

I am nothing
God, awaken from rest
God, I beg for death