If I Let You Go

I still speak in second person,
Like you're somewhere in the room.
I still listen for your answers
In the quiet afternoon.
You were every calm I needed,
The breath behind each fear.
But love, when held too tightly,
Can slowly disappear.
And I don't want to lose you twice
Once in truth, and once in name.
But every day I stay the same
Feels further from who I became
If I let you go
Will I forget the way you looked at me?
Will the part of me you held
Still know who I'm meant to be?
This isn't blame, it isn't shame
It's just time I finally know
I can love you,
And still let you go.
I don't need to tear the pages,
Just to start a brand new line.
Some things end with quiet choices
Not with anger, not with time.
You were right for who I once was,
But I'm learning to be new.
And loving me now means
Not holding on to you.
You were never just a chapter
You were everything I wrote.
But stories change with every breath
We're brave enough to float.
If I let you go
Will I lose the light you placed in me?
Can the love that shaped my bones
Still walk with me, quietly?
It's not the end, it's not defeat
It's the first real truth I know
I can love you,
And still let you go.
Not all love is meant to stay.
Not all hearts are meant to wait.
Some goodbyes don't slam the door
They fade,
Like evening light on a winter shore.
If I let you go
I won't forget,
I won't undo.
But I will breathe
Like someone new.
No, this isn't losing love
It's learning how to grow.
So hold me once
Inside this choice,
Then let me go.