maybe in another world.

Ever so often the thought of us being together again pops into my head
The feeling of pure joy I felt just thinking about you in my presence
The heart pumping adrenaline I got whenever you brushed your skin against mine
And I know this is wrong
I know that I shouldn't be feeling this way
That these feelings should be present with her and not you
But I simply can't help it
I find myself falling asleep at night dreaming about the best version of yourself
A fair, kind, loyal you
And in these dreams I feel that same overwhelming love I felt years ago
I feel your skin brushing up against mine
I hear your soft distinct voice
And in these moments I feel calm, whole, and happy
Only to wake up and realize that this reality isn't and never will be real
That never again will I be able to feel your soft small hands touching mine
You treated me like shit
Wasted my time
Took all that love I had for you and used it against me
And somehow, I still want you