Melancholy

I spent three years trying to figure out
Figure out what I'm meant to be
And from what I've seen
I'm not meant to be anything
Just someone not worth noticing
Not even worth loving
At least that's what you seem to think

I'm feeling like I'm better left alone
Try to tell me that I'm wrong
I'll show you all the times that I've screwed up
I've hurt you more than I've hurt myself
And this guilt might be the death of me
But I won't give in to it
At least that's what I try to think

I've tried so hard to accept this
But do you know how hard it is
To accept that you don't want to live
Accept that you've never been strong enough
But I know that you are satisfied
Satisfied knowing
You got the best of me
I got what I deserve

I got what I deserve
I got what I deserve
I got what I deserve
(I got what I deserve)