1000 deaths

You see here, kid
You gotta just go for it
Don't think about what comes after
Or what came before
You just gotta bend your knees
Take a deep breath
And jump
And you might think
What if I fall?
No, what if you don't?
What if you fly?
Trials and tribulations, rises and the falls
Patience, celebrations, feel a thousand blows
Complete a thousand rows, fill up a thousand rows
I've seen many beds, not a single rose
I guess I'm quite impressed how I can't just fold
Unlike the beds I've slept on, feel that I've been slept on
But really haven't yet, embraced the light within
Stepped up to the fight, I'm in the eye of the storm
But you can't plan shit in this fuckin' life
It all fell apart now several times
Gritted my teeth when I should've cried
Tried to hold on tight when I should of flied
Yeah, babies don't get hurt and fall all the time
Father on the line
I got the news, new world of pain
Fist to the stomach had to punch it down
I don't know if I can contain?
While I'm lookin' out the window of a moving train
Taking me to a place we all fear to go
We all fear to show, how we feel inside, need it to survive
I've seen people walk in life and their spirits died
Comfort all around, but what's the bloody price?
No one gets away, no one gets to play for free
I need a tourniquet
Critical bleeding hits
Non of this making sense
I need a tourniquet
Critical bleeding hits
Non of this making sense
Truth be told, yeah, the truth be cold
Never said hello, but we said goodbye
Guess it's true some roads lead to Rome
Guess it's true we all need a home
Yeah, out in the tropics gettin' hit with the chills
It all felt unreal but was so damn real
The sun came up in the paradise
And cold nightmare was etched in the eyes, yeah
Cherry juice and cigarettes
Imma die
Imma die
Imma die a thousand deaths
Will said it was for cowards, I'm not sure of that
Cos in my darkest hours, something needs to go
It fights and it claws, but if I don't let it go
It will rot within me
Worms in the apple, still water and the pestilence
I'm trying to to clear the sediments
The darkness from the light
Should've have never ever ever ever seen that sight
Time to end that fight
Cos the plates are shifting
From the speechless soul
Doubt comes moving in
Do I fit into the mould?
Have I ever listened close?
Have I ever been inside?
Have I ever been alive?
Have I always just survived?
Everything I've ever known evaporates before my eyes
Inner forms are changing
Outer stands with pride
I need a tourniquet
Critical bleeding hits
Non of this making sense
I need a tourniquet
Critical bleeding hits
Non of this making sense