Isn't That the Best Part

Everything I didn't want to be I've become
Everything I didn't want to lose is gone
My dreams will never come true
I've never had one
Playing Russian roulette with a fully loaded gun
And it's all my fault, isn't that the best part?
Yeah it's all my fault
Isn't that the fucking best part?

It's a mixture of all the drugs in my mind I've been cursed with
It never shuts up and all the edges I'm pushed to
I try to climb up and the look that you give me
This time I give up
I wish I could go back and do it all again
But the way that I work I'd just fuck up again
I don't know what I'm doing
Stop asking my reason for why I keep choosing to be my own demon

Everything I didn't want to be I've become
Everything I didn't want to lose is gone
My dreams will never come true
I've never had one
Playing Russian roulette with a fully loaded gun
And it's all my fault, isn't that the best part?
Yeah it's all my fault
Isn't that the fucking best part?

And it's all my fault, isn't that the best part?
Yeah it's all my fault
Isn't that the fucking best part?