i hate myself
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๐ ID: 23871673
๐ Lyrics
I smoke cigarettes
Because I got a problem
With my mental health
I don't know how to help myself
Don't know how to ask for help
I don't know how to not break myself
Don't wanna see so many sunrises
Because of all the late nights
I know where all the afterparties is
When I'm tired as shit
And I just wanna keep going
And fuck with that blow
And be a different person
That I know I will like
I'm a different person
You see on the outside
On the Instagram
Tryna get a lot of likes
Smoking in this room
When I'm supposed to smoke outside
I'm the one that you thought
Was so good but I couldn't
Make one good decision
Even if I could
Fucked up
So drunk
I got no one to love
I hate myself
And the way I am
I hate myself
And the way I am
Go
I hate myself
I'm trapped inside a system
Lock my heart and hide the key
And know there ain't nobody miss 'em
Got some cringe I call my life
And see as memories
Dodging all my peers
Because I know they're so ahead of me
Lace my blunts with Ketamine
Chase my pills with Hennessey
Dive into the ocean from the bridge
It's feeling heavenly
Died when I was seventeen
Got stood up by Emily
Hate myself much more
Than you could ever know
Or ever be
Jumped to methamphetamines
Can't change a world I'll never see
Weight up on my heart
And man I'm only stuck on
Level three
Still make the same bad decisions
And in my position
I know I should change in my heart
But don't know where to start
I hate myself
Because I make a lot of bad decisions
Then I suffer the consequences
And just live with them
I don't fight
I don't try
I don't hide
I just lie
In my mind
Like it never ever ever happened
It never ever ever happened
Coming up and being happy
It never ever ever happened
I hate myself
And the way I am
I hate myself
And the way I am
Because I got a problem
With my mental health
I don't know how to help myself
Don't know how to ask for help
I don't know how to not break myself
Don't wanna see so many sunrises
Because of all the late nights
I know where all the afterparties is
When I'm tired as shit
And I just wanna keep going
And fuck with that blow
And be a different person
That I know I will like
I'm a different person
You see on the outside
On the Instagram
Tryna get a lot of likes
Smoking in this room
When I'm supposed to smoke outside
I'm the one that you thought
Was so good but I couldn't
Make one good decision
Even if I could
Fucked up
So drunk
I got no one to love
I hate myself
And the way I am
I hate myself
And the way I am
Go
I hate myself
I'm trapped inside a system
Lock my heart and hide the key
And know there ain't nobody miss 'em
Got some cringe I call my life
And see as memories
Dodging all my peers
Because I know they're so ahead of me
Lace my blunts with Ketamine
Chase my pills with Hennessey
Dive into the ocean from the bridge
It's feeling heavenly
Died when I was seventeen
Got stood up by Emily
Hate myself much more
Than you could ever know
Or ever be
Jumped to methamphetamines
Can't change a world I'll never see
Weight up on my heart
And man I'm only stuck on
Level three
Still make the same bad decisions
And in my position
I know I should change in my heart
But don't know where to start
I hate myself
Because I make a lot of bad decisions
Then I suffer the consequences
And just live with them
I don't fight
I don't try
I don't hide
I just lie
In my mind
Like it never ever ever happened
It never ever ever happened
Coming up and being happy
It never ever ever happened
I hate myself
And the way I am
I hate myself
And the way I am
โฑ๏ธ Synced Lyrics
[00:11.54] I smoke cigarettes
[00:12.70] Because I got a problem
[00:13.94] With my mental health
[00:16.42] I don't know how to help myself
[00:18.73] Don't know how to ask for help
[00:20.45] I don't know how to not break myself
[00:22.71] Don't wanna see so many sunrises
[00:25.62] Because of all the late nights
[00:28.53] I know where all the afterparties is
[00:30.99] When I'm tired as shit
[00:32.47] And I just wanna keep going
[00:34.04] And fuck with that blow
[00:35.67] And be a different person
[00:36.93] That I know I will like
[00:38.73] I'm a different person
[00:39.89] You see on the outside
[00:41.67] On the Instagram
[00:42.77] Tryna get a lot of likes
[00:44.65] Smoking in this room
[00:45.78] When I'm supposed to smoke outside
[00:47.25] I'm the one that you thought
[00:48.65] Was so good but I couldn't
[00:50.38] Make one good decision
[00:51.86] Even if I could
[00:53.15] Fucked up
[00:54.63] So drunk
[00:56.04] I got no one to love
[00:58.33] I hate myself
[01:00.53] And the way I am
[01:04.80] I hate myself
[01:06.43] And the way I am
[01:10.91] Go
[01:11.89] I hate myself
[01:12.68] I'm trapped inside a system
[01:13.92] Lock my heart and hide the key
[01:15.23] And know there ain't nobody miss 'em
[01:16.98] Got some cringe I call my life
[01:18.22] And see as memories
[01:19.47] Dodging all my peers
[01:20.50] Because I know they're so ahead of me
[01:22.37] Lace my blunts with Ketamine
[01:23.89] Chase my pills with Hennessey
[01:25.38] Dive into the ocean from the bridge
[01:27.10] It's feeling heavenly
[01:28.36] Died when I was seventeen
[01:29.88] Got stood up by Emily
[01:31.31] Hate myself much more
[01:32.29] Than you could ever know
[01:33.35] Or ever be
[01:34.30] Jumped to methamphetamines
[01:35.59] Can't change a world I'll never see
[01:37.25] Weight up on my heart
[01:38.19] And man I'm only stuck on
[01:39.27] Level three
[01:40.22] Still make the same bad decisions
[01:42.19] And in my position
[01:43.79] I know I should change in my heart
[01:45.98] But don't know where to start
[01:47.11] I hate myself
[01:47.87] Because I make a lot of bad decisions
[01:50.22] Then I suffer the consequences
[01:52.03] And just live with them
[01:53.08] I don't fight
[01:53.85] I don't try
[01:54.61] I don't hide
[01:55.33] I just lie
[01:56.05] In my mind
[01:56.75] Like it never ever ever happened
[01:59.83] It never ever ever happened
[02:03.00] Coming up and being happy
[02:05.70] It never ever ever happened
[02:09.92] I hate myself
[02:14.19] And the way I am
[02:21.69] I hate myself
[02:26.12] And the way I am
[00:12.70] Because I got a problem
[00:13.94] With my mental health
[00:16.42] I don't know how to help myself
[00:18.73] Don't know how to ask for help
[00:20.45] I don't know how to not break myself
[00:22.71] Don't wanna see so many sunrises
[00:25.62] Because of all the late nights
[00:28.53] I know where all the afterparties is
[00:30.99] When I'm tired as shit
[00:32.47] And I just wanna keep going
[00:34.04] And fuck with that blow
[00:35.67] And be a different person
[00:36.93] That I know I will like
[00:38.73] I'm a different person
[00:39.89] You see on the outside
[00:41.67] On the Instagram
[00:42.77] Tryna get a lot of likes
[00:44.65] Smoking in this room
[00:45.78] When I'm supposed to smoke outside
[00:47.25] I'm the one that you thought
[00:48.65] Was so good but I couldn't
[00:50.38] Make one good decision
[00:51.86] Even if I could
[00:53.15] Fucked up
[00:54.63] So drunk
[00:56.04] I got no one to love
[00:58.33] I hate myself
[01:00.53] And the way I am
[01:04.80] I hate myself
[01:06.43] And the way I am
[01:10.91] Go
[01:11.89] I hate myself
[01:12.68] I'm trapped inside a system
[01:13.92] Lock my heart and hide the key
[01:15.23] And know there ain't nobody miss 'em
[01:16.98] Got some cringe I call my life
[01:18.22] And see as memories
[01:19.47] Dodging all my peers
[01:20.50] Because I know they're so ahead of me
[01:22.37] Lace my blunts with Ketamine
[01:23.89] Chase my pills with Hennessey
[01:25.38] Dive into the ocean from the bridge
[01:27.10] It's feeling heavenly
[01:28.36] Died when I was seventeen
[01:29.88] Got stood up by Emily
[01:31.31] Hate myself much more
[01:32.29] Than you could ever know
[01:33.35] Or ever be
[01:34.30] Jumped to methamphetamines
[01:35.59] Can't change a world I'll never see
[01:37.25] Weight up on my heart
[01:38.19] And man I'm only stuck on
[01:39.27] Level three
[01:40.22] Still make the same bad decisions
[01:42.19] And in my position
[01:43.79] I know I should change in my heart
[01:45.98] But don't know where to start
[01:47.11] I hate myself
[01:47.87] Because I make a lot of bad decisions
[01:50.22] Then I suffer the consequences
[01:52.03] And just live with them
[01:53.08] I don't fight
[01:53.85] I don't try
[01:54.61] I don't hide
[01:55.33] I just lie
[01:56.05] In my mind
[01:56.75] Like it never ever ever happened
[01:59.83] It never ever ever happened
[02:03.00] Coming up and being happy
[02:05.70] It never ever ever happened
[02:09.92] I hate myself
[02:14.19] And the way I am
[02:21.69] I hate myself
[02:26.12] And the way I am