Smiling While I Break (Nightcore)

Can you see it in my smile?
Or is it hidden just right?
Every laugh is just a shield
Every glow — a scar concealed
I spin in lights, but drown alone
My voice is loud, my heart’s a stone
You think I’m fine, 'cause I don’t cry
But I write goodbye in every lie
They play my songs, I play along
But in my head — I don't belong
I’m smiling while I break, dancing through the pain
No one sees the thunder in the rain
I’m laughing like I’m whole, but I’m just a fake
Glitter on my wounds, for heaven’s sake
Mirror tells me I’m still here
But I don’t trust what I appear
I ghost myself to feel okay
I beg for night to skip the day
I’m not a flame, I’m just the smoke
My soul’s a song that always chokes
You cheer my name, I lose my breath
This stage is love — this crowd is death
I’m smiling while I break, dancing through the pain
No one sees the thunder in the rain
I’m laughing like I’m whole, but I’m just a fake
Glitter on my wounds, for heaven’s sake
If I disappeared tonight…
Would anyone say I was bright?
Or just...
Gone.
I’m smiling while I break, heartbeat full of glass
Living in the glow that will not last
I’m laughing like I’m fine, but I’m just a shell
Heaven plays my song — but I’m in hell
I smile...
And nobody knows.