numb

I can't feel
Emotions like a kid
And I spend
Too many hours in my bed
I haven't been
The person that I am
I don't think
I can fall in love
I can't stop
This self-sabotage
My body hurts
But my body is numb
My clothes don't fit right
This face is not mine
My name sounds like a joke
Why am I crying
I'm just going home
Why am I crying
When my eyes are closed
Why am I crying
Why am I alone
Why am I crying
Why am I
I hate this feeling
But it's comforting
At least it's what I know
I don't know why
I feel this way inside
No one tries
To understand my mind
It's okay
I never cross the line
(But I want, I want to)
Compulsive liar
That's just what I am
I can't change
I'll do it again
I believe
I'm okay
But then
My clothes don't fit right
This face is not mine
My name sounds like a joke
I hate this feeling
But it's comforting
At least it's what I know
I hate this feeling
But it's comforting
But my body is numb