HOW TO ESCAPE

I cross my arms to deal with problems
Just sit around, wait for my death
My growing age didn't bring me wisdom
It makes me feel I'm more fucked up
They live in future while I'm living in the past
Constantly recalling what I've done
Feels like a drop of water in the open air
How long am I gonna last
Now being noisy is expressive
And being humble makes me stupid
Kids died at 18, becoming zombies
No one taught me how and pushed me out
Go shut down our perceptions just for money
That's the only way to live
Now I know
What they taught us they will never do
What we blame for they don't care about
Been taught to be grateful for what I'm now having
I fit in so hard, I keep going on
But does that mean I have to ignore my feelings
But after I calm down, my brain keeps repeating
It keeps repeating
It keeps repeating
It keeps repeating
It keeps repeating
Keeps on repeating
Repeating
Repeating
Repeating
Repeating
Repeating, Oh
"Why do I feel my life is really fully driven by fear?"
"Asking another AI would I get a job at this year."
"Does it make me cooler to say that I like Radiohead?"
"Will life go a bit easier if I just learn how to bend?"