What's a Life Without living w you

Geekin off my own paranoia
While im on my call girl, yuh
While im pausing my mind taking in all of these words she saying i just hope you never feel ignored, yuh
But im feeling bored yuh
Not because of you
Its because of me
Thinkin of we
Thinkin of sleep
Scrambling anger sadness and anxiety passionate bout these lil actions that make you so special im grabbing this metal im blowing my temple the glipse of life without you
Never been so true
Never been so rude
Hopin it wont be true
Lie to me if you have to
(Never been so true)
(Never been so rude)
Whats a life without living with you
Tryna move on from the fucking past
Only time I feel your typa love is when I fucking relapse
Back to them fucking xans
Gotta gun
Single Bullet in this empty mtoherfucking chamber so I make it fucking go blam
Feelin fucking dead ever since I been there
Fucked up from the motherfucking meds
That I got prescribed
Meant to fucking help for my my fucking mental health
Oh well
Still fucking livin in this motherfucking hell
Yeah I still fucking miss you
But I don't got the time for that shit
Grab that fucking bic, seen a pic
I was in it, contemplating my decisions
Handled business clearly wasnt better
Sorry for the tantrums and a fucking liar