kill.me_please

Kill me, please
I'm begging this time
Perpetually addicted to the high
Living is easier when I'm fucking numb
Distract from the fact
That I'm losing everyone I love
Time keeps slipping this life away
(I'm becoming absent to my own decline)
What's left to feel I'll just focus on dying
It's all that's left to do anymore
Live fast, die young and lose the people you love
Nothing ever seems to be enough
It never gets easier wiping the blood
Caged in this casket
That's filled with all my grief
The dirt, it piles up
And I let it bury me
Kill me, please
I'm begging this time
Perpetually addicted to the high
Living is easier when I'm fucking numb
Distract from the fact
That I'm losing everyone I love
Kill, kill
Kill
Carved your name on the blade 'til there's bullet wounds
Dig into the skin to remind me of you
Nothing prepares you for this
You'll never get back those moments you missed
Sitting with all this regret
How am I supposed to cope with your death?
How do I accept that you're dead?
There are no second chances
No way around
It's hard to keep pushing all of it down
When the last memory I have
Is putting you in the ground
And I knew that I'd lose you
While I waited on the bad news
But nothing prepared me for how much I'd fucking miss you