WAITING

Wish I could go to the stars and fly away without a trace

Wish I could visit the sun, incinerate, crumble away

I walk into the room, I tie my shoes, avoid the faces

Too insecure to talk but I'm still craving conversation

And I wish my hands wouldn't go
Fucking numb every time that I talk to her

I overthink all the things that she
Says so you think that I would've learned

Overreacted to nothing again, why the hell does my stomach hurt

Guess I'll go puke in the bathroom
Again while I ponder this stupid curse

I wish my brain wouldn't shut itself off every time that I talk to him

When we lock eyes I freeze up,
Pretend I've never talked to my friends about this

Moment we're having but somehow
It's ruined because I'm so damn anxious

All of these thoughts in my head
Waging war against me and I'll never win

Waiting on a bus that'll never come
Waiting on a ride to something dumb
Waiting on a hug, I just need one
Waiting on you to text me some
Waiting on a person I can trust
Waiting on something to calm the dust
Waiting on the day I'll feel alright
Waiting for my life to turn out fine