B.D.D. (Brookie Don't Die)

I lost it all, my brain, life, my balls for y'all
No more phone calls, I walk along the long halls
The long calls, the alcohol, stalls the shows
The strip malls, the hoes, the strippers
And spit balls and pitfalls I done fell through
I went to hell for you
Probably end up in Bellevue or jail for you
That'll be two for two, head for ICU, but...

I laugh when I cry, knowin' love is a lie
I pray to the sky, hopin' Brookie don't die
From the drugs and the hoes and the crack and the flows
The tears and the flows and the blood in the nose
In the land of the body blows anything goes
If Brookie don't cry, then Brookie don't grow
Am I high? Am I low? Guess I really don't know
So save me

I banged my head again, woke up dead again
Off my medicine, ripped my cardigan
Made my bed and said, "Play my card again"
Took my slaughterin', wrote it off
And took one more daughter in
God don't like me, but he love me
He strikes and kills anyone that shuns me
You best to backtrack, feel the backdraft
When I write rough drafts

I laugh when I cry, knowin' love is a lie
I pray to the sky, hopin' Brookie don't die
From the drugs and the hoes and the crack and the flows
The tears and the flows and the blood in the nose
In the land of the body blows anything goes
If Brookie don't cry, then Brookie don't grow
Am I high? Am I low? Guess I really don't know
So save me

Got a chip on my shoulder the size of Boulder, Colorado
Cold to look in the mirror, I'm gettin' older, El Dorado soldier
Off the off ramp, off the wagon and on to braggin'
You got a monkey on your back? I got a dragon
I'm in mourning every morning
Hangin' out with my dumb ass and have a surgeon general warn
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
Born to be wild and born to rust
Screamy Yoko, geeked on coco
I duck and truck 'cause that damn bitch loco
Implode weekly, geeky, freaky
Yes, block me, mock me, but cannot beat me
Sing the chorus against the for-us
Love adore us or watch the tour bus
Over your head, if you miss the boat
Well, then it's over your head, yeah, it's over your head

I laugh when I cry, knowin' love is a lie
I pray to the sky, hopin' Brookie don't die
From the drugs and the hoes and the crack and the flows
The tears and the flows and the blood in the nose
In the land of the body blows anything goes
If Brookie don't cry, then Brookie don't grow
Am I high? Am I low? Guess I really don't know
So save me
I laugh when I cry, knowin' love is a lie
I pray to the sky, hopin' Brookie don't die
From the drugs and the hoes and the crack and the flows
The tears and the flows and the blood in the nose
In the land of the body blows anything goes
If Brookie don't cry, then Brookie don't grow
Am I high? Am I low? Guess I really don't know
So save me