Ash and Salt Water

Bury me in ash
And salt water
When it gets harder
Don't expect to act
If I wanna then I'm gonna
I'm so sorry I
I disappointed father
I've been another
It just gets so bad
To live out the horror
Then do the [?] I guess

Tell me I'm worth it
And my next of kin that
Tell me I'm worth it
My wrists are open