i can't cry, but i want to

I've gotta fix my head
You wanted me
To believe in me
You
Need me to be here and not in-between
You wanted
You
Need me to be here, not imitate
I
Want you to see
The better side of me
You
Want me to suffocate
Suffocate
I
Want you to see
The better side of me
You
Just wanna complicate
Complicate
I can't cry
But I want to
And so I'll try
Cuz I miss you
You need me
To see what's real and not
Incomplete
I'm down on both my knees
In-between
Grasping what's really seen
Incomplete
Nothing can change you see
What do you want from me
Stop this I'm begging please
What do you need from me
I'm down on both my knees
I gotta fix my head
With blinded eyes
I hate my life
I gotta fix my head
I gotta shut it down
Because it wants me dead
Just like we talked about
You know it's hard to leave
Someone you love behind
So here we go again
I hope it works this time
I gotta fix my head
I gotta shut it down
Because it wants me dead
Just like we talked about
You know it's hard to leave
Someone you love behind
So here we go again
I hope it works this time
You, give
Give me the space I need to see
You, you
Give me something I can't recreate
I cannot run even if I try
With blinded eyes I can't try to make it right
Right you need
To see what's real and not
Incomplete
I'm down on both my knees
In-between
Grasping what's really seen
Incomplete
Nothing can change you see
I can't cry
But I want to
I gotta fix my head
I gotta shut it down
Because it wants me dead
Just like we talked about
You know it's hard to leave
Someone you love behind
So here we go again
I hope it works this time
Shut it
Shut it
Shut it down
I gotta fix my head again
I hope it works this time
This time
This time