Merlot.

I don't smoke for fun bitch, bitch I smoke because it helps
You think I'm the one bitch? Sorry but you're dead as hell
Living life with me is like living life in fucking hell
Can't you fucking tell I'm unstable
And bitch there's more under the table

Purposely pushing away, I do not want you to stay, no
All of my feeling's are grey, why is you calling me bae, hoe?
Hop the fuck off my line, I'll only waste your time
Yeah we're both here but I promise
The reason you are isn't the same as mine

Sorry I sound like an ass, honestly I really am
Yeah, you can come to the crib but you ain't meeting my fam
Yeah, you probably know why, I'ma hang up if you cry
I did not come here for feels, after we fuck, it's fucking goodbye

I lost all my feeling's on my way back from depression
Life is fucking Hell & when I die I'll go to Heaven
Unknxwn. but fuck the "o", her favorite number was a 7
I spent 7 months alone so nobody gets the credit

For why I'm still alive, why I didn't choose to die
No comfort when I cried, all alone every night
In the dark where I reside, so I don't need you as a light
I'm the reason I'm still here, and I'm the reason I'm alive

I'm the only one I'll ever need in this world
My dick is the only thing I'll ever give a girl
I'm sick in the head, I don't like shit, shout out to Earl
Sipping slow on some merlot in a solo until I twirl

I lost myself when I found you, I guess it had to end
I wouldn't snap till I found proof that it was all pretend
I hoped to come a dead end so I could be with you
But I found more than I wanted, so now with you I'm through

With all your lies, I can't believe that every time
That you said that you were mine, it was all just a disguise
For you to throw on and off when needed someone to call
I hope you play this song while driving by a cliff and slip right off

I'm not the bad guy unless make me
But you did me so fucked up that I been thinking lately
That every person that I meet I'll do 'em wrong before it's me
Cause every single time I don't it just leaves me more incomplete

But how could that work if I'm just passing my hurt
Around like it's not important that someone else has the curse?
Cause it won't seize to exist just because it's not in my grip
Around the world it goes until it's back to me when I'm picked

And then I'm back to my shit talking, explosive, I'm popping
Detmer is what I call my demon, I can hear it knocking
He won't leave till I agree, if I don't cave it ain't stopping
Smoking weed is the only way that I know I can stop him