sedative.

Lost thoughts in my head, I might slip up away
I might say the wrong thing, I wish it was the end
The reaper is reaching, my life force is leaking
I'm shaking and freaking out cause I know you don't need me

You promised that you'd never leave me
I told you this wouldn't be easy
I gave you my heart
When you gave it back, it wasn't beating

Now I'm dead again, putting my faith in the meds again
Taking whatever they recommend, I need a stronger sedative
Don't even ask, I'm not alright, I really do not wanna fight
No, not tonight, I would rather die

Than to live in this world with the way that I feel
I miss the old days, when everything was okay

Why can't i be okay?
Why can't I just feel good?
Slipping back the old days
Just to fucking feel good
I'm fucking waste of space
Never did a thing good
Music is the only way
I can let this shit out
I don't like to open up
It's not like you can help out
I tried to let a person in
Look how that shit turned out
Fucking up my lungs again
Smoke until I burnout
Lesson wasn't learned before
A lesson won't be learned now