The 72 Names of God

Am I a mystic or am I hopeful
Maybe I'm just gullible
I seek where my eyes can't see Upheaval
Slabs of gold and granite overturned
Only to find pests and snakes
In orgy
You're never home
They gave me your name but you don't answer to it

Could you perceive me there?
Could you be there for me?

I make spells of your name in hopes you'll be
A systematic prayer
Disingenuous incantation
A stone around my neck
A pebble
A monolith
A stone around my neck

Could you perceive me there? Could you be there for me?

Years I could live amidst the dirt
Piercing my life's soil
Exhumed piece by piece until the earth retracts my bones
And still plain sight could conceal you
Maybe it's just in my head
But it's painted on my heart
My body falls asleep
My mind, it falls apart