10 Million Thoughts

All I ever do is wish for madness
Anything to feel something again
Since you've been gone, it set me off my axis
And now all I wanna do is forget

God, why does it hurt to see you happy?
How do I stop these feelings when they come?
I don't know how I got here, so don't ask me
Either feel it all at once or be completely numb

And, god, I feel it coming down
In slow motion
He's watching me break down
With no emotion

Nothing's spoken

All I wanted was for you to want me
Now all I want is to be alone
I know that you won't listen, but I'm sorry
This life of fighting with myself is all I've ever known

And, god, I feel it coming down
In slow motion
He's watching me break down
With no emotion
I tried my best to speak

But I'm frozen
'Bout ten million thoughts, but
Nothing's spoken
'Bout ten million thoughts, but
Nothing's spoken
And, god, I feel it coming down
In slow motion

He's watching me break down
With no emotion
I tried my best to speak
But I'm frozen
'Bout ten million thoughts, but
Nothing's spoken
'Bout ten million thoughts, but
Nothing's spoken

All I wanted was for you to want me
Now all I want is to be alone
I know that you won't listen, but I'm sorry
This life of fighting with myself is all I've ever known