What The Fuck Was I Thinking?

I fell in love and forgot about the homeless
The hungering after the women on welfare
The strippers who need health care
The friends, the beggars, the thieves

I fell in love and forgot my own mother
My father, my sister, my grandma, it killed her
And walked around baby, wishing you'd notice me

In my eyes, the light shines so weakly
Call it electricity, but why waste our energy?
In my mind, I can be happy
Stink of depravity, just an aching dog cavity

I fell in love and threw out all my pencils
My books and drew big hearts with red colored stencils
And became pickled mush, atrophied

I fell in love and I stopped all my eating
Clung onto your arms and forgot I was living
But remembered kitties and the pretty girls on your street

In my eyes, the light shines so weakly
Call it electricity, but why waste our energy?
In my mind, I can be happy
Stink of depravity, just an aching dog cavity

I fell in love and forgot my own mother
My father, my sister, my grandma, it killed her
And walked around baby, wishing you'd notice me
Wishing you'd notice me
Wishing you'd notice me
I'm a freak