it's not you, it's me

I am no longer in human form
I go where you place me
I make pretty patterns in the flesh
Of a body I've disowned

I don't want to leave my bed
I don't want to see my friends

I love you, I want to throw up
I love you but it's not enough

You can no longer push past the layers
No you can't reach me now
You are curious
Everybody wants to say they've been here
But no one wants to stay for long
I'm a haunted house

I don't want to leave my bed
I don't want to see my friends

I love you, I want to collapse
You love me but just not like that

I am not a strong woman
I will write you a million songs 'til you take me back
And you'll be looking down at me
From your pedestal where I put you at
I'm weak, I cannot eat and "it's not you, it's me"

I'll be your dog, I'll be your sleigh
I'll be your bride, I'll be your babe
I'll be anything that you want except okay
I'll be anything but okay

If you could just kiss me
Or just sleep next to me
If you could just kiss me
I want you so bad that it's killing me

I am no longer in human form
I go where you place me