Black Spring Rising

Now I think it's not [?]
Oh I assume all the risks
Two [?] is closer
Two [?]
At least I would know for sure
That I [?]
That I can't decide myself

How much time have I wasted in a day?
How much to be discovered inside of my head
Will I have this chance to find something
Something new inside of me

No more counting but slow
From now, until I die
Instead of looking outside
Inside, it's so [?] that I feel
I get lost on time
But at least I've the surprise
To be [?]

How much time have I wasted in a day?
How much to be discovered inside of my hеad
Will I have this chance to find something
Somеthing new inside of me