If I Stare

My eyes are fixed on what doesn't exist
Layers of longing that keep me consistently
Bending my neck by the weight of the thoughts in my head
If you'd listened well, maybe you'd have heard what I said

That I'm afraid to die
Maybe I'd feel more alive
If I stared straight in the eyes of time
And screamed "you are mine"
Fake it until I feel real
Surrendering to how you feel
I've been cast into the past
Now I can't find my way back

My eyes are fixed on what doesn't exist
Or maybe it does but my mind misinterprets it
I'm bending my neck by the weight of the thoughts in my head
If you'd listened well, maybe you'd have heard what I said

That I'm afraid to die
Maybe I'd feel more alive
If I stared straight in the eyes of time
And screamed "you are mine"
Fake it until I feel real
Surrendering to how you feel
I've been cast into the past
Now I am not coming back

Now I drift in the midst of a memory
A foggy version of this reality
And there are parts of me that love this life
Yet I'm on the verge of tears and I don't know why

Lie die, lie die
Lie die, lie die
Lie die, lie die
Lie die, lie die
Lie die, lie die
Lie die, lie die
Lie die, lie die

Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie