Dying Every Day
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My papi used to call me Johnny Bench
But I only recollect it through a foggy lens
My first migraine was crying when he died
Barging in the room and yelling
At the side of my aunt Hollie's bed like
Man I miss my papi.shit
I'm not sure that I ever been happy since
Beside a couple fleeting moments
That I barely even noticed
Every smile's been an accident
I collapsed at the casket
Seven years old trying to fathom where my paps went
The last dying gasp of a catholic
In Easton Pennsylvania innocence got it's ass kicked
Then that depression soon set in
I'm a little less than normal every festive mood deadened
Ingested every chemical testing
If the pressure might lessen on my chest a few seconds
But that day I sat solemn in the audience
My Nani's histrionic probably sobbing in a gaudy dress
I don't remember and I'm guessing that it's probably best
But I remember when he called he called me Johnny bench
It's when I lost my faith
Compensate
For the heart lies vacant
Everything's gone side ways
Papi died in 88
I been dying every day since
I been dying ever day
Dying every day
I been dying ever day since
I been dying every day
Dying every day
Dying ever day since
I knew she'd buy it when she saw it
A little keychain said I love you in Tagalog
She got it as a gift for her mama
But she never got to give it now it's hanging from her wallet
Zita was a nurse she would get sick
She kept telling the doctor it was sepsis
But the hospital wouldn't let her check in
She died in her bed meanwhile we were pregnant
It was pouring on the morning of her viewing
Couldn't go in groups they would only let two in
At a time cuz of lockdown guidelines rules and
We had thin blue masks on we cried right through them
What a devastating way to start this marriage
Lost the child to miscarriage it would haunt us and disparage
Any future time we tried I could barely even bare it
We lost three babies we lost two parents
Her lumpia's still sitting in the freezer
Scared to eat them like her memories might leave earth
Instead they're blessing everything I thaw to feed her
I'ma take care of your daughter
Rest in peace Zita
I said I lost my faith
Compensate
For the heart lies vacant
Everything's gone sideways
Zita died in 2020
I been crying every day since
I been crying every day
Crying every day
I been crying every day since
I been crying every day
Crying every day
I been Crying every day since
But I only recollect it through a foggy lens
My first migraine was crying when he died
Barging in the room and yelling
At the side of my aunt Hollie's bed like
Man I miss my papi.shit
I'm not sure that I ever been happy since
Beside a couple fleeting moments
That I barely even noticed
Every smile's been an accident
I collapsed at the casket
Seven years old trying to fathom where my paps went
The last dying gasp of a catholic
In Easton Pennsylvania innocence got it's ass kicked
Then that depression soon set in
I'm a little less than normal every festive mood deadened
Ingested every chemical testing
If the pressure might lessen on my chest a few seconds
But that day I sat solemn in the audience
My Nani's histrionic probably sobbing in a gaudy dress
I don't remember and I'm guessing that it's probably best
But I remember when he called he called me Johnny bench
It's when I lost my faith
Compensate
For the heart lies vacant
Everything's gone side ways
Papi died in 88
I been dying every day since
I been dying ever day
Dying every day
I been dying ever day since
I been dying every day
Dying every day
Dying ever day since
I knew she'd buy it when she saw it
A little keychain said I love you in Tagalog
She got it as a gift for her mama
But she never got to give it now it's hanging from her wallet
Zita was a nurse she would get sick
She kept telling the doctor it was sepsis
But the hospital wouldn't let her check in
She died in her bed meanwhile we were pregnant
It was pouring on the morning of her viewing
Couldn't go in groups they would only let two in
At a time cuz of lockdown guidelines rules and
We had thin blue masks on we cried right through them
What a devastating way to start this marriage
Lost the child to miscarriage it would haunt us and disparage
Any future time we tried I could barely even bare it
We lost three babies we lost two parents
Her lumpia's still sitting in the freezer
Scared to eat them like her memories might leave earth
Instead they're blessing everything I thaw to feed her
I'ma take care of your daughter
Rest in peace Zita
I said I lost my faith
Compensate
For the heart lies vacant
Everything's gone sideways
Zita died in 2020
I been crying every day since
I been crying every day
Crying every day
I been crying every day since
I been crying every day
Crying every day
I been Crying every day since
โฑ๏ธ Synced Lyrics
[00:12.02] My papi used to call me Johnny Bench
[00:14.32] But I only recollect it through a foggy lens
[00:16.93] My first migraine was crying when he died
[00:19.18] Barging in the room and yelling
[00:20.53] At the side of my aunt Hollie's bed like
[00:23.00] Man I miss my papi.shit
[00:25.12] I'm not sure that I ever been happy since
[00:28.43] Beside a couple fleeting moments
[00:29.98] That I barely even noticed
[00:31.27] Every smile's been an accident
[00:33.95] I collapsed at the casket
[00:35.69] Seven years old trying to fathom where my paps went
[00:39.03] The last dying gasp of a catholic
[00:40.97] In Easton Pennsylvania innocence got it's ass kicked
[00:44.86] Then that depression soon set in
[00:46.35] I'm a little less than normal every festive mood deadened
[00:49.83] Ingested every chemical testing
[00:51.85] If the pressure might lessen on my chest a few seconds
[00:54.94] But that day I sat solemn in the audience
[00:57.30] My Nani's histrionic probably sobbing in a gaudy dress
[01:00.46] I don't remember and I'm guessing that it's probably best
[01:03.17] But I remember when he called he called me Johnny bench
[01:06.51] It's when I lost my faith
[01:08.28] Compensate
[01:09.55] For the heart lies vacant
[01:11.81] Everything's gone side ways
[01:13.54] Papi died in 88
[01:15.01] I been dying every day since
[01:17.67] I been dying ever day
[01:19.29] Dying every day
[01:20.69] I been dying ever day since
[01:23.09] I been dying every day
[01:24.72] Dying every day
[01:26.03] Dying ever day since
[01:28.58] I knew she'd buy it when she saw it
[01:30.55] A little keychain said I love you in Tagalog
[01:33.54] She got it as a gift for her mama
[01:35.30] But she never got to give it now it's hanging from her wallet
[01:39.09] Zita was a nurse she would get sick
[01:41.72] She kept telling the doctor it was sepsis
[01:44.18] But the hospital wouldn't let her check in
[01:46.55] She died in her bed meanwhile we were pregnant
[01:49.62] It was pouring on the morning of her viewing
[01:52.01] Couldn't go in groups they would only let two in
[01:54.52] At a time cuz of lockdown guidelines rules and
[01:57.19] We had thin blue masks on we cried right through them
[02:00.47] What a devastating way to start this marriage
[02:02.65] Lost the child to miscarriage it would haunt us and disparage
[02:05.34] Any future time we tried I could barely even bare it
[02:08.22] We lost three babies we lost two parents
[02:11.76] Her lumpia's still sitting in the freezer
[02:14.00] Scared to eat them like her memories might leave earth
[02:16.78] Instead they're blessing everything I thaw to feed her
[02:19.06] I'ma take care of your daughter
[02:20.68] Rest in peace Zita
[02:22.94] I said I lost my faith
[02:24.78] Compensate
[02:25.92] For the heart lies vacant
[02:28.25] Everything's gone sideways
[02:29.97] Zita died in 2020
[02:31.31] I been crying every day since
[02:34.05] I been crying every day
[02:35.66] Crying every day
[02:36.83] I been crying every day since
[02:39.58] I been crying every day
[02:41.04] Crying every day
[02:42.39] I been Crying every day since
[02:44.92]
[00:14.32] But I only recollect it through a foggy lens
[00:16.93] My first migraine was crying when he died
[00:19.18] Barging in the room and yelling
[00:20.53] At the side of my aunt Hollie's bed like
[00:23.00] Man I miss my papi.shit
[00:25.12] I'm not sure that I ever been happy since
[00:28.43] Beside a couple fleeting moments
[00:29.98] That I barely even noticed
[00:31.27] Every smile's been an accident
[00:33.95] I collapsed at the casket
[00:35.69] Seven years old trying to fathom where my paps went
[00:39.03] The last dying gasp of a catholic
[00:40.97] In Easton Pennsylvania innocence got it's ass kicked
[00:44.86] Then that depression soon set in
[00:46.35] I'm a little less than normal every festive mood deadened
[00:49.83] Ingested every chemical testing
[00:51.85] If the pressure might lessen on my chest a few seconds
[00:54.94] But that day I sat solemn in the audience
[00:57.30] My Nani's histrionic probably sobbing in a gaudy dress
[01:00.46] I don't remember and I'm guessing that it's probably best
[01:03.17] But I remember when he called he called me Johnny bench
[01:06.51] It's when I lost my faith
[01:08.28] Compensate
[01:09.55] For the heart lies vacant
[01:11.81] Everything's gone side ways
[01:13.54] Papi died in 88
[01:15.01] I been dying every day since
[01:17.67] I been dying ever day
[01:19.29] Dying every day
[01:20.69] I been dying ever day since
[01:23.09] I been dying every day
[01:24.72] Dying every day
[01:26.03] Dying ever day since
[01:28.58] I knew she'd buy it when she saw it
[01:30.55] A little keychain said I love you in Tagalog
[01:33.54] She got it as a gift for her mama
[01:35.30] But she never got to give it now it's hanging from her wallet
[01:39.09] Zita was a nurse she would get sick
[01:41.72] She kept telling the doctor it was sepsis
[01:44.18] But the hospital wouldn't let her check in
[01:46.55] She died in her bed meanwhile we were pregnant
[01:49.62] It was pouring on the morning of her viewing
[01:52.01] Couldn't go in groups they would only let two in
[01:54.52] At a time cuz of lockdown guidelines rules and
[01:57.19] We had thin blue masks on we cried right through them
[02:00.47] What a devastating way to start this marriage
[02:02.65] Lost the child to miscarriage it would haunt us and disparage
[02:05.34] Any future time we tried I could barely even bare it
[02:08.22] We lost three babies we lost two parents
[02:11.76] Her lumpia's still sitting in the freezer
[02:14.00] Scared to eat them like her memories might leave earth
[02:16.78] Instead they're blessing everything I thaw to feed her
[02:19.06] I'ma take care of your daughter
[02:20.68] Rest in peace Zita
[02:22.94] I said I lost my faith
[02:24.78] Compensate
[02:25.92] For the heart lies vacant
[02:28.25] Everything's gone sideways
[02:29.97] Zita died in 2020
[02:31.31] I been crying every day since
[02:34.05] I been crying every day
[02:35.66] Crying every day
[02:36.83] I been crying every day since
[02:39.58] I been crying every day
[02:41.04] Crying every day
[02:42.39] I been Crying every day since
[02:44.92]