Lack of You

Took me two weeks but I fell in love with a forest fire
A silver-tongued boy who would burn me down with my own desires
I was dandelion wishing that he'd be my man
Wanted him in my life
I was making big plans
'Til he ghosted me
And I believe something still haunts me
I want him to want me

My whole heart
All my blood
Even the air is so messed up
Every day
And every night
I can't make it feel all right
I'm fucked up on you
For the lack of you

I won't try to play tough like I'm Hercules, I ain't apathetic
Its been 4 or 5 years I still write about you, pathetic
I'm still hoping against hope I see you
One day, someday
When the sky blows up
And the sun runs dry
And I'm holding you
And I'm terrified
'Cause it's so far fetched
This prophecy
I'm using to hold on
When you're good and gone

My whole heart
All my blood
Even the air is so messed up
Every day
And every night
I can't make it feel all right
I'm fucked up on you
For the lack of you

I wanted sky high mausoleums with both of our names on it
And Roman colosseums with people cheering for the reign of us
'Cause we were Shakespeare love and come-to-Jesus moments
Scientific mumbo jumbo with infinity exponents
And now I'm all fucked up
And I'd say more but this 5-years-too-late song is enough

My whole heart
All my blood
Even the air is so fucked up
Every day
And every night
I can't make this shit all right
I'm fucked up on you
For the lack of you

Baby, baby, baby
Baby, baby, baby