Different Now

You know the good kid growing up
That was me
I was voted most likely to be a priest
And I thought I could not let anyone down

My definition of the way to be kind
Was to lose myself and to shun desire
I thought I had
Life figured out

But I, oh I am different now

And all the little ways that I tried to rebel
Well, I kept them quiet
Hid them well
Because it wasn't real if it was never found

And I looked at the world
Through the eyes of a mask
And compared myself with some fuzzy math
To stake my claim on higher ground

But I, oh I am different now
Oh I, I am different now

And I felt the holy water as a kid
But still the love of God felt like a stranger
Had to live and die to become born again
Baptized in the fire of all my failure

Still have the flaws like I always did
A capacity for violence
That I'm asking God to take away
But I can look the world in the eye
And make my amends with an honest life
So the ones I love can say

That I, oh I am different now
Oh I, I am different now